Wednesday, July 29, 2009
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
well sometimes.
i was just thinking about buying a book online that i have been meaning to read so. little google search. $3.35 (plus 4 for shipping)! no way man. yes way. should i? about to do it. while im on all the books on that site went up five dollars. thats still not much. funny though. i think i should wait. becoming the answers to our prayers. only book of his i have not read yet.
i have a lost itch on my back... you know the kind. it itches you scratch it(or it scratches and you itch it) right on the spot... but then its not the spot. or the spot moved. its lost. but still there. it is not good for man(woman) to be alone. cause. nobody is there to find your lost back itch. im not meant to be alone. i have said that. i miss you jane.
im house and dog sitting. oh yeah. and cat. for a few weeks. for a family i dont really know at all. its close to one of my works. ha. but. i dont miss this kind of living. the cooking for one. computer time. not having the opportunity to help someone with something when i get home from work. not sharing. you cant share if you are alone.
i do miss the little green house. and the garden. and my tree. and being on a joy schedule. and having things around the house. the way i want them to be. my shower and bathroom. no diapers. ha. ha. but. whats any of that. how much of that is all about me. ew. those are all so small. small things. not needed in anyway. comfortable. yes. but who wants comfort. i was at a meeting sunday night. the preacher said. -if you are comfortable. you can be pretty safe to say that you are not fully moving in the things god has for you.- man how true is that. whats your cross? take it up. face it.
you bless my heart. thank you. thank you for being you.
i have a lost itch on my back... you know the kind. it itches you scratch it(or it scratches and you itch it) right on the spot... but then its not the spot. or the spot moved. its lost. but still there. it is not good for man(woman) to be alone. cause. nobody is there to find your lost back itch. im not meant to be alone. i have said that. i miss you jane.
im house and dog sitting. oh yeah. and cat. for a few weeks. for a family i dont really know at all. its close to one of my works. ha. but. i dont miss this kind of living. the cooking for one. computer time. not having the opportunity to help someone with something when i get home from work. not sharing. you cant share if you are alone.
i do miss the little green house. and the garden. and my tree. and being on a joy schedule. and having things around the house. the way i want them to be. my shower and bathroom. no diapers. ha. ha. but. whats any of that. how much of that is all about me. ew. those are all so small. small things. not needed in anyway. comfortable. yes. but who wants comfort. i was at a meeting sunday night. the preacher said. -if you are comfortable. you can be pretty safe to say that you are not fully moving in the things god has for you.- man how true is that. whats your cross? take it up. face it.
you bless my heart. thank you. thank you for being you.
Monday, July 27, 2009
just this. not much else.
sleeping to dream about you.
good song. nice thought. just came on my weepies station. but. its not the weepies. its jason mraz. i wonder when i will be done with the weepies. i have not gotten sick of them yet. i have been on this weepies kick for a grand long time. neat.
so much thinking.
in the car on my drive “home” from work. i was thinking. about. relationships. relationships of the romantic type. yeah? really? a single girl thinking about that. go figure. so many of them happening around me. that happens. and it happens a lot. more than ever. weird. but not really. some that know me. more than others. would say im a little more than cynical when it
interruption. one of my favorite songs just came on the radio... i made a face as i thought to myself. what a bad cover of this song. so i minimized this page to see who it was that was killing this song... well it was the version they always play on this station. you know the one by the original artist. one my favorite songs. so weird. my ears must be off today. or something.
anyway. some would say that im a little more than cynical when it comes to relationships of said kind. something in my heart is always a little sad. when i hear news of one of my friends. news that he or she FINALLY has someone. they are finally in the relationship of their dreams (that. or they just settled for the first someone who is into them that they can be into.). “well that awful! she must be jealous.” not so much. im always happy when they are happy. but only when its happy of the real variety.
why are they happy.
because they finally found the one.
i truly hope so. cause if thats the case. im on board.
but. i never think they do in the start. it always starts with settling in my mind. and. truth be told. most of the time im right. most of the time.
cynical:
believing the worst of human nature and motives; having a sneering disbelief in e.g. selflessness of others.
ew.
im not into cynicism. unless it has to do with this. and thats not cool with me. so im trying to change the way i think about that. but like i said. most of the time im right. so its hard. but that doesnt make thinking about it that way right. we will see how it goes. i think this is one of those. taking these thoughts captive. kinda time.
praise god that i am not the judge.
how i fix this problem with me. simple. just pretend. i will never be with anyone. i never want to be with anyone. that way when i (ahem. finally.ahem) am with someone. there is no chance im settling. right!? man im a smart one.
lame as.
help us jesus.
good song. nice thought. just came on my weepies station. but. its not the weepies. its jason mraz. i wonder when i will be done with the weepies. i have not gotten sick of them yet. i have been on this weepies kick for a grand long time. neat.
so much thinking.
in the car on my drive “home” from work. i was thinking. about. relationships. relationships of the romantic type. yeah? really? a single girl thinking about that. go figure. so many of them happening around me. that happens. and it happens a lot. more than ever. weird. but not really. some that know me. more than others. would say im a little more than cynical when it
interruption. one of my favorite songs just came on the radio... i made a face as i thought to myself. what a bad cover of this song. so i minimized this page to see who it was that was killing this song... well it was the version they always play on this station. you know the one by the original artist. one my favorite songs. so weird. my ears must be off today. or something.
anyway. some would say that im a little more than cynical when it comes to relationships of said kind. something in my heart is always a little sad. when i hear news of one of my friends. news that he or she FINALLY has someone. they are finally in the relationship of their dreams (that. or they just settled for the first someone who is into them that they can be into.). “well that awful! she must be jealous.” not so much. im always happy when they are happy. but only when its happy of the real variety.
why are they happy.
because they finally found the one.
i truly hope so. cause if thats the case. im on board.
but. i never think they do in the start. it always starts with settling in my mind. and. truth be told. most of the time im right. most of the time.
cynical:
believing the worst of human nature and motives; having a sneering disbelief in e.g. selflessness of others.
ew.
im not into cynicism. unless it has to do with this. and thats not cool with me. so im trying to change the way i think about that. but like i said. most of the time im right. so its hard. but that doesnt make thinking about it that way right. we will see how it goes. i think this is one of those. taking these thoughts captive. kinda time.
praise god that i am not the judge.
how i fix this problem with me. simple. just pretend. i will never be with anyone. i never want to be with anyone. that way when i (ahem. finally.ahem) am with someone. there is no chance im settling. right!? man im a smart one.
lame as.
help us jesus.
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