i just dont feel it anymore.

"this is the last song that i write
'til you tell me otherwise
and it's because i just don't feel it" -

im just about to hit two years.

also i feel like i just cant be bothered with tomorrow. its funny when people tell you. you might die. next time i hear that. i will look that dr. in the eye and bluntly reply. yes i can tell you that i will die. not might die. i just will. and so will you. then i will smile.

you have alot of growing up to do. so do i.

today i hit the top of the biggest hill of the roller coaster. as far as speed of busy life goes. wacky.

its funny when someone just knows what you need. even if you dont know thats what you need at the time. like just the right kind of talk. or the simple question that gets skimmed over too often. thank you.

i said i would give up whatever He wants me to. no matter what. sometimes it take longer than others.

also.

i gave Him permission to just take whatever He thought i was leaning on too much. to take the things that were/are getting in the way of what i need to do. take the things that are blocking. take the things i use as a crutch.

i didnt think it would be this long.

i dont feel right. when i dont write. maybe thats why. maybe i never will again. i guess if thats whats needed. i am. i am ok with that.

"this is the last song that i write
'til you tell me otherwise
and it's because i just don't feel it anymore" -